I nearly fell unconscious at work today. You know, I was just working normally, feeling hungry because I didn't eat breakfast as usual and feeling hot because I didn't think it would actually be warm today. Then suddenly my stomach and abdomen begin hurting more than usual (on the "period" again). Then I can barely stand, I feel dizzy and the world starts spinning, my ears are ringing, I can barely think enough to speak.

It happened today so I still remember it pretty clear. I really wanted to lay down badly, being upright at all was really uncomfortable so I was put to lay on the floor until the paramedics came. Everything looked blurry, slightly blue, maybe a bit pixel if that makes sense. My ears were ringing but I still heard people talking to me, and I still hear music in my head.

The paramedics came and took my vitals and such, didn't find anything wrong with that. My dad came to pick me up from work, and I ate when I got home.

Now my dad is worried about me and he wants to talk about my physical and mental health. So, I guess the years of not eating or exercising regularly are catching up to me. I'm too weak to open a can of tuna. It makes me want to cry that I made someone that concerned about me.

Ever since then I feel that same empty blue grey feeling I have pretty often. The kind that makes it hard to feel emotion, and everything feels far off and blurry.

That's it, I don't know how to end this.